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So a combination of hideously bad experiences on the phone today, the understaffing around here driving up call volumes, and my own occasionally rampant depression is making me really be in a I hate my life mode right now. I am sitting here watching my life go by while I am stuck in a dead end job cause right now I have nothing better to to do. Right now I would welcome being hit by a truck. I dont actually feel like I have done anything with my life and I wonder why even bother any more.

This may well pass but right now I am in really unhappy place.

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[imperatrix.livejournal.com]

There's a lot that you have to offer the world. Don't blow it. Trust me on this one; I almost did. Looking back, I wonder what on earth was I thinking, because even when things are bad... they will only get better. Sure, it might be "eventually" and more middens will likely hit the windmill in the process, but seriously: You have friends, and your friends love you. It sometimes doesn't seem like a lot, but it is. I'm disappointed that it took me a suicide attempt, an intervention, and some therapy to figure this out when in actuality what worked the magic was my friends just quietly being my friends, no matter how bad things got.

I'm 32 this year and I'm just getting started.