GAH!!!!

[technoir]

So I am feeling burnout today. My mind is in a dreadful place with nothing but spikes of irritation, annoyance, and anger. I hate my job lately due to the inequities of it. Seniority and merit apparently have less to do with advancement as being cute or someone other people go and party with. I hate the people I have been talking to.

My hobbies have their own annoyances as well, which I will not go into. Suffice it to say even the things I normally enjoy working on are irritating the crap out of me.

I am annoyed by the slowness of progress on my weight loss and getting into shape. I am annoyed at my own inadequacies in this regard. I am annoyed at my writing not coming as easily over the past few days. I am annoyed I have not tried to right fiction in a while due to other projects.

I am angry with myself for my lack of progress. I am back in the feeling of being trapped and it is driving me nuts. I hate this. I know I will get past it eventually, but right now I in fight mode. I want really lay into someone or something.

Comments

[pipistrella.livejournal.com]

Look! Baby bunnies!

http://mfrost.typepad.com/photos/uncategorized/pile_o_buns.jpg

[technoir.livejournal.com]

Hasenfeffer? great now I am hungry.

thanks for trying though doll.

[pipistrella.livejournal.com]

I thought it might help if you thought about stomping them.

[hoshiadam.livejournal.com]

Okay, some random postive things:

1. Don't have to drive down alone this weekend.
2. You've lost 10%(?) of your body weight in what, 4 months?
3. You played an awesome NPC at this last event! You kind of defined the Meurlain in a lot of ways. Awesome.
4. Get to see suibhne dance this weekend.
5. Venom.
6. I'm totally here to act as a sounding board for non-detailed rants about conflicts. If you want, we can just bitch about stuff on the way down this weekend.
7. You really did look shrunken after the event.
8. Financially, while not in the best place, you are doing well I think.
9. Biscuits, biscuits, biscuits, biscuits, biscuits, biscuits, biscuits, biscuits, biscuits, biscuits!
10. You are getting lines as a voice actor. Awesome.
11. You and the rest of Plot got me addicted on Eclipse.

Now, get the hell in a better mood. I can't have other people in a bad mood around me when I'm in one. I totally called dibs on being bitchy this week.

;)

[technoir.livejournal.com]

maybe I will go see hot fuzz tonight to cheer up.

[hoshiadam.livejournal.com]

It is so worth it. Hilarious movie.

[mkillingworth.livejournal.com]

{{{{{hugs}}}}}

You have done remarkably well, and come a very long way in terms of your weight loss and personal development. It sounds trite, I know, but we all have those days and it *will* get better.

{{{{{more hugs}}}}}

[technoir.livejournal.com]

I know. I am just in a foul mood.

[aetatis.livejournal.com]

It's nice to know that other people have this same response to life sometimes. I know how you feel, man, and I'm sorry! I hope it passes soon.

[technoir.livejournal.com]

Thanks luv. I am sure it will. I just let it get to me sometimes.

[tomdpimp.livejournal.com]

Sorry that ClientHellogic is still playing the same game as they did when I worked there. Let me know if this have gotten worse or better?

[technoir.livejournal.com]

The problem is most places are like that. It is not like it is any better in any corporate enviroment.

[gr8tmazinkaiser.livejournal.com]

Time to step into P-side or the equivalent and frag some uppity noobs... blasting people to smithereens always relieves some stress...

Good luck...

[technoir.livejournal.com]

I currently don't have a FPS. I should probably correct that.

[stagefreaky.livejournal.com]

Can't wait to see you tomorrow!

[technoir.livejournal.com]

I look forward to it as well. It looks like I will be there around 3.